I had always been searching
For years, I didn't know what I wanted for myself and my future. On the outside, everything seemed fine. I had a booming career, a good home-life, busy weekends filled with family and friends. But, even with all the “happy life” boxes checked, I couldn’t shake feeling lost and unsatisfied with my life. In the back of my mind was this nagging question— Is this all there is for me?
I tried finding hobbies to fill time, setting goals, meditating to calm my restless mind. I did all I could to clear negative energy out of my life. I read spiritual books to expand my thinking. I visited psychics and tarot card readers for hints. Pulled daily oracle cards and wrote in my journal. I did all of this in hopes of having an epiphany that would point me toward purpose and fulfillment, but it didn’t come.
With no one to talk to and nowhere else to get answers, I hit rock bottom, hating myself for not being able to settle for all I had and for not figuring out how to stop feeling like something was still missing from my life. After months of emptiness and confusion, I felt my Soul rise up and say “you have too many years ahead of you to go on like this. You will figure this out—keep trying!” In my darkest hour, that voice gave me a tiny glimmer of hope that set me on my way to digging for the truth of our existence and deciding to help others through coaching.