I had always been searching
I’m a born seeker -- of deeper purpose and meaning, of a 'right' direction to follow in life, and of what truly makes us who we are. I've always felt that there's a specific path for each of us, an authentic way of being and purposeful way of living that we must find and define. This is my story of doing just that...
I turned to numerology, astrology and divination in my teens, believing they held the answers to who I am and what path I should take in life, but with limited self-awareness and no practical use beyond the descriptions, I moved on with life.
I loved and lost, moved houses every other year, did the YOLO lifestyle throughout my 20's, built up a successful hairstyling career, and ambitiously worked toward lifestyle goals that didn't fit my personality but gave me a 'resemblance of purpose' that I craved.
Even when life looked good on the outside, I felt like a complete mess on the inside. I battled overwhelm, often letting life choose for me instead of me choosing for myself. I charged head-first in so many wrong directions. I could’ve won a gold medal as an over-thinker and felt completely cut off from my intuition an any 'special messages' from within myself.
Every morning I’d wake up and get on the emotional rollercoaster of hopefulness that inevitably plunged into hopelessness by the end of the night. I spent years impatiently waiting for life to magically work itself out and for me to suddenly know what to do next.
One existential crisis after another over those years eventually led me back to my mystical readings and introduced me to spirituality. This time, a new level of self-awareness and years of life experience brought much more context to the descriptions.
The only thing missing? Learning how to take what was in my readings and apply it to my life in ways that got me real results. A career that felt more purposeful, a lifestyle that fit my needs, a love-life that nurtured my soul... I wanted it all!
Again I went searching... for spiritual teachers, mentors, coaches and readers who could offer more than just descriptions, spiritual fluff and the typical woo-woo intuitive practices. I wanted to work with someone who could tell me about myself at soul-level and guide me forward into the life described in my readings.
I couldn't find that person, so I decided to become that person.